Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Missing the Time!
Mother's Day Coming up this Sunday. Every Mother's Day For the Past 20 years I have spent it with my Mom. Through out my teen years, I was hard on my Mom. I wasn't a rebellious child just a - need my own life child. My Life was not suppose to be like my Moms. If you are older you know what I mean. That time one wants to see what the world is for their self. In my Thirties I figured out Moms Know Best. Did I turn out like Mom? Yes Kind of, I learned we like the same things. I looked like her and sometimes get that glimpse of her in me. Mother's Day 2007, I surprised her and showed up on Mothers day (about a 4 hour drive). I had told her I would not be able to come that year. I had been there through her chemo and had spent a lot of time Nursing her through the treatments. It just kept bothering me that I felt that way! So, a couple days before Mother's Day my hubby ask me what I wanted to do. I told him I really wanted to spend time with Mom, just her and I. We, called Dad to check if we could come on Mothers Day Weekend. She was so surprised, Dad said nothing to her. I took her to eat out. Just Mom and I, I really cherish that Day. It was the last Mothers Day together, I didn't know then it would be! Last year was a blur, yes I did get a garden fountain and I think we went out to eat. I just can't remember. I was missing Mom so much. This year I requested to go to the Cheese Cake Factory Restaurant. I still do not know how I will be feeling. I have a wonderful teen daughter. However, she is at that age of wanted to find her own way. Just today she told me she wanted to go to a movie with her friends this weekend and hang out with them. So today I feel down, not having a mother to wish Mother's Day to and not knowing if my daughter will follow the same path I did. Missing out on this teen time in life, sharing time with Mom, and cherishing the year soon to be gone. There is a song that really says how it is! I loved this song although it does make me Cry. Take a look--- Here is the link to the video; song by Trace Adkins " Your Gonna Miss This"