Heard a message yesterday in church. Funny how questions thought and not spoken get answered. I was thinking how can one change how they are. Ever wanted to start over? I feel that way often. Every time we moved, change Areas in our lives, or go away from groups I want to start over. A feeling of rejection or mistakes made filled my soul. My thoughts were, if I start over then I can change. Become the person I think People want. I seem to always revert back to Me!
It was made clear to me that I am who I am. Profound I think. All these years I have been trying to be someone else. With each move I felt relieved and thought I could be someone else. I looked forward to the moves just so I could start over. Starting over became an obsession.
I am a Caring person. Love having fun and experiencing new things. Love learning everything I can on anything that comes up. Technology is amazing and the world seems to be evolving by the day. Age helps me become a better thinker, however it can make me rethink past decisions.
Since I have change my direction in life to follow the Lord,Jesus Christ, I have been waiting for that Life changing moment. I now realize that "that moment" is not going to happen. I am who I am. I will need to be that person and not be intimidated by others to be someone else. I am who God Almighty wanted me to be. I have changed over the Years. Although the changes are more in how I feel about things, And not in who I am. I still make mistakes. Do not measure up to some of my family members. However I think I will be content in who I am. Allow myself to be the fun loving,life loving, Earth loving soul. God wants me to enjoy Life here on earth. To see all the good that can be done. To not live in Sadness and Gloom.
If you are reading this, know that I am who I am, not perfect and can not do it all, will disappoint you, But I am willing to listen to you. Hope you will accept me for me.